As a kid I loved sports
and sporty activities. I used to climb trees, run around and swam almost every
day. I also liked P.E. lessons. It was fun, relaxed sports. There were no
winners or losers, we hardly kept score. I don’t remember being particularly
good at anything, but I wasn’t awful either and most importantly I enjoyed it.
Then something
changed. I started hating sports. I hated when we had to pick teams and compete
against each other. I was always the shortest (I’m barely 154cm now that I’m
all grown up) and when you’re a pre-teen or teenager size differences are huge…
I remember having to run hurdles the same height as everyone else and ending up
with bruised and bloody knees; I just could not get over those damn things.
Because I felt intimidated
by competitive sports, I started avoiding it which of course made things worse
as I didn’t get any practice. When I finally got out of school I felt I was
free, nobody could force me to do things I did not want to so I didn’t exercise
for several years.
When I was 24 I
decided to join a gym. I thought I could ease myself into it, do it at my own
pace but since I paid for it I would also be motivated to go so as not to be
wasting my money. Half a year later everyone at the office I worked at signed
up for a half marathon. Me, running 21km in one go? The teenage me would’ve had
a heart attack just thinking about it.
I was sure I was going
to die on the day of the marathon so I trained hard. Probably too hard. At
first it was torture getting out of the house and go for a run in freezing,
slippery conditions but I forced it. At the end of my 3 months training I
remember running a 1.5hr session on a dark and rainy evening and on the last
stretch before home I laughed out loud because I was enjoying myself so much.
The feeling when I finally crossed the finish line at the half marathon was
unbelievable—pure joy and pride.
Since then I’ve kept
training moderately. I go to the gym, go for runs and go to dance lessons. I’ve
found that sports is fun, as long as
I feel I am not forced into it. It’s still difficult to get myself off the
couch and outside, but it’s well worth it. I've learnt to enjoy that feeling when I reach
home after a sweaty jog and that burn that I feel in my muscles as I stretch
them out.
“When you feeling
ain’t the same and your body don’t want to
But you know gotta
let it go cause the party ain’t jumpin’ like it used to
Even though this
might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn”
(Burn,
Usher)
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